I’m not talking about by a little, I’m talking 180 degrees. If you would have asked my twelve-year-old self or even my nineteen-year-old self where I would be at thirty-two, both would have told two totally different stories. Thus, the relaxed look at life and fashion. In this post, you’ll get a closer glimpse of my personal life and the new beginning that's about to take place.
Getting married, having a child, and even owning a house next to the city I grew up in would have been so distasteful to me at twelve or nineteen. However, looking back, I had no idea what it meant to be in love, to understand what potentially being a mom could be like or even appreciate where to spend most of my life. I let outsiders like my New York City friends and family define the life I was supposed to live, instead of defining what life actually meant to my soul, simply because I craved acceptance. I never really search my own heart and sought out who I was because I never really lived life in a way to allow myself to do that.
I’ve finally learned that timing is never right and that there is so little of it. The idea of waiting for all things to be perfect is almost ridiculous.
Love has taught me a lot of things and living life in the present has created a confidence in me that I know will continue to grow. I’ll be bringing another life into my world that will change my previous lifestyle forever. There is a strong sense of anxiety that comes with that, worrying if the adjustment will take well with the rest of the life I've built. I think I’m ready to start on a new adventure, however, I need to keep in mind that if it doesn't come out as everything I’ve pictured in my mind, that it will all be fine in the end. As I continue to blog and document all my worries, wishes and hopes, I think it will indefinitely help me to become ready for most that comes my way. Lately, pregnancy has not been a dream come true, but I know that this baby will turn into my ultimate dream.
A NEW BEGINNING FOR FASHION REWRITE
In the past two years, I’ve experimented with my style more than I have in the past twelve years of my life and I’ve really dived into the retrospective as well as the philosophical approach to the clothing in my closet. My views on the environment, coupled with the fact that I don’t take fashion as seriously as I used to, has made me feel more confident in my sense of style more than I’ve ever been.
Lately, I’ve turned to dresses instead of jeans and flowy silhouettes and my look is more loungewear based than professional clothing that one would wear to work. I’ve held off on shopping because I didn't want too many maternity clothes, and I wanted to save up for my little one. I’ve been dying to sew something up though for the baby, so I can’t wait to find out the gender for a dive into handmade baby clothes! ??
As a result of my new lifestyle to come and my newly evolved look, I've decided to build an entirely different website for Fashion Rewrite. I plan to have a new look, highlight my new DIY projects and open up a store for some of the handmade items I create. I look forward to sharing more as the time inches closer to the due date and new website. :)